Daze of Write

Ignoring the pain,
My life goes on still,
Holding the memories,
I take my pill,
I think of him,
And remember the fun,
And the things we did,
And it hits like a ton,
\I see him and,
My heart drops,
I start to cry,
My stomach flip-flops,
I know I must move forward,
I know I can not cry,
I know this is hard,
I know this is no lie,
My God I love him,
This is what needs to mend,
This can not be true,
Tell me this is not the end.